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Saturday, May 29, 2010

Just after …

Upturned empty glasses

On the wood-surface
Of my mind.

Wet patterns
On a table
In the sun.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

She

Black lipstick

Tight derriere

Soft-gelled hair

Intriguing perfume


Passing, momentary

Impressions

Collected on

The one-way street

Of life


Felt, appreciated

Un-acted-upon


Attractions un-acknowledged


Pleasures forbidden

Reached, un-reached


Softness… desired

Hated.


Cruel… hated

Needed.


Crash and burn.

Little matchbox life

Un-ignited


New look, new philosophy

Redundant, unavailing


Time to be

Someone else

Again!

Split

Effective
Completeness
mature
Self-reinvention
Frightening
Extant flotsam

Tides and streams of…
Normalcy
Stronger
Older

Jack-in-the-box
Otherness
Intermittent
Unexpected

Introspection, meditation
Mediation, dialogue
Sick-making
Nerve-raking
Meaningless hyperbole.

Sirena


Plastic smile

Tendrils of hair
On over-pale cheeks

Distinct nip
In the air

Waiting
For all and nothing

Making the best
Of time, energy, Now

Warm fingers
Skittering over
Oversensitive nape, taking control
Warm chills


Cozy discomfort
Teasing warmth

No-limits boundaries
Non-demand
Magic

Woman-love.

Metamorphosis

Wide-awake drunk
On sleep deprivation
And black coffee.

Nervy, restless
In my haven of peace.

Looking, not feeling
Good
In unaccustomed avatar.

Equally disappointed
By hair-dye and philosophy.

Not recognising
The face in
The mirror.

Sexy, self-assured
And unimaginably gauche.

The price of a personal overhaul.

Visibility

Wind-wrinkled
Face
Of a swimming pool.

Turbulent, in-turmoil
Trees
Reaching for a window.

Further out,
Hills
Ripping through a lake-surface.

Kamikaze streams
Trying
To rip me off a stone.

Air, overwhelmed
In smoke, eucalyptus, barbecue
And the stink of my mind.

Ash-flakes
Off a needlessly burning
Cigarette,
Mottling
The fine blue weave
Of an inexpensive shirt.

Cleavage

Moving, stagnant

Still-flowing waters

Ebbing, wafting
All at once

Cleaving, melding
Grey-purple winds

Cloying, clawing
Mindscapes of green

Split image, split personality
Split …

Wanting

George Michael
And the soft
Pitter-patter of rain

Drunk enough
To disregard
Obvious animosities

Motor functions
Sketchy

State of mind
In close resemblance
To an unfinished
Picasso.

Wanting… needing
More than one

Unable, yet
To grasp
The enormity
Of desire

Frieze

Fade in…

Grey-green dawn
Cartoons and chicken soup

Bleached out thoughts
Bleak planning
Sidelined, for an unnecessary
Holiday from sense

A bad trip
To a good place?
All in the head.

Barb-wire common sense
Seeping in
In smothering waves
Over friendly phone lines

Acrid bust-up
Sharp, jagged tears
Ripping out
Smooth-surface stagnation

Scathing concern
Foundation-destroying affection

… Black-out

Epiphany

Dying cigarette
Eddying smoke
Flat Pepsi
And thoughts unthought

Committted

Water shortages

Dishes and guests

All the mundane
Life-truths
Taking on
A sudden
Vicious
Lightning clarity.

Life
Crazy, unpredictable
Un-realised
Devotions.

Re-surfacing
Of old ghosts
More real than real

One fine day
Waking up
To forever.

The Summoning


Vague disquietudes

Un-reasonable
Un-explainable                                               
Misery
With state of being.

Solitary, misfit
Sewing machine

Vast, salt-flat
Spaces of living-room

A sudden, gut-twisting
Need
To go skyclad
Into historical
Future-space

Twenty-nine

Existential angst
Failing to
Recognize
Face
Mirror
Self

Domesticated
Becalmed
Wildness
Restless, caged

Willing suspensions
Of disbelief
Welcome inversions
Of meaning
And mind

Re-invented
Re-thought? …

Paranoid mind-fuck?
Growing pains?

Wormhole

Trying to sort out

Me, myself and I

Putting them in their places


Telling a friend

Confusing, un-convey-able issues

Time? Not enough…


Long hair, green eyes

Black toenails, one anklet

Appearances and impressions

Not nearly the same…


Waking up to rain

Purple mood turning black

Trying to write, clarify

Always, not good enough.


Caught in a time-warp!

Fallacy

Time heals

All wounds


Mine, non-healing

Carcinogenic

Fatal


Death

Sweet oblivion


Lacking the strength

To step over

The last parapet.

Holy Grail

String of bad days
Ennui and Yahoo chat
Mommie dearest
Late nights and loan papers

Crosswords
Iced café americano
Watching bustle go by
Head-stagnating

Peter Wimsey
Algernon, Bunbury
Coffee, smoke, poetry
Enough meaning?

Spellcasting.

Still, airless

Strangle-hold of night.

Energies eddying,

Surging

Whirling.

Sad-ecstatic

Pale green and ochre.

Power

The Deep

Placidity
Numbness?
Toss-up.

Conversing with friends
Throwing up questions
Of semantics.

Much more
Than meets the eye

Peace-placidity
At peace
Placid?
Placid-unupheaval
Stagnation?

Believing, not believing
Clichés
Proving, un-proving
Beliefs

Trying to convince
Whom?

Renewal

Nicotine, tar, ash

Convoluted

Suicidal desires


Lacking guts and desperation

To get through

Today


One day at a time

All wrongs righted


Love thyself…

Easier said


Love of others

Coming to naught

Once, twice, a hundred times


Cursing stupidity

Wanting to take charge.


Control

Diaphanous, almost unreal

Needed

Essential.


Some day…


Reserves of strength

Running low, lowest


Self-image

Taking a beating

At the hands of choice.


Tomorrow

Another day.